* A portrait of my children, once a week, every week, in 2017*
Matteo and Lilah: Things have felt a
little crazy around the house lately. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed
trying to keep up with all the chaos. Lilah, you have become fiercely
independent, wanting to do everything you see Brother doing. Your body
is still small, but you are suddenly capable of so much. Those little
muscles want to move and climb and dance. My attention is divided as
the two of you run in different directions. One kid is climbing on the
table while the other is dismantling the pantry. Matteo, you have
become fascinated by the inner workings of machines and are always
taking everything apart that is held together by screws. Your toys lie
in heaps of parts all over your room. “They grow up fast,” we are
constantly reminded by strangers at the grocery store. “Enjoy this
time,” they always seem to say. So I am trying. I am trying to embrace
the chaos and appreciate the everyday details: the messes, the
spills, the boo boos, the broken toys. I try to think about what these
things reveal about our lives. Those messes were left by children
making mud puddles, spraying water, having fun. Spills happened because
Brother wanted to pour a glass of milk or open a container of
applesauce for his baby sister. The boo boos were kissed away with love
and the broken toys reveal the curiosity and determination of a growing
mind. Perhaps there is a little space to enjoy the chaos and not
always resist it.
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